It was dusk in India, 5:30 p.m. to be exact. The planets and stars had conglomerated in the astronomical configuration of Poorvaashaadha nakshatra. The silent bells in space twinkled, as the sky deepened its colour, to announce the arrival on June 30, 1950, of baby Sudhakar - a Cancerian ! Sudhakar's parents, Parvati and Sadashiv Kaitwade, were from Maharashtra, but living in Khargone in the state of Madhya Pradesh.
In another part of India, at the same time, a young sanyasi, Swami Chinmayananda, was sitting in Gangotri, under very severe conditions, studying the ancient Hindu scriptures under the tutelage of the great sage Swami Tapovanam. It was his second trip to Gangotri with him. He was studying the Mandukya Upanishad and Karika. In India, good thoughts are put into the child from birth onwards. Swami Chinmayananda, a sadhak at that time, was coincidentally, studying and reflecting upon one of the highest Upanishads in the sacred literature, which is generally studied last of all, when his future shishya and successor, was to be born.
Tapovanji Maharaj accelerated his growth by providing an atmosphere of extreme austerity. This was a difficult bridge to cross, but Swami Chinmayananda's inherent perseverance, reinforced by inspiration from his teachers, Swami Shivananda and Swami Tapovanam, helped him forward.
The exuberance of his discovery when the veil of ignorance gets torn asunder, and the sheer joy of relief from the unnecessary travails of life that man spins around himself, made Swami Chinmayananda want to share his ecstasy with others. Mother Ganga gave the signal: "Follow my example". This is what she seemed to say, as she gushed down to the plains. One thing led to another, and on December 31, 1951, in the city of Pune, Swami Chinmayananda began his first Gyana Yagna with an audience of six.
The toddler Sudhakar, who was destined to carry his torch, had just about learnt to walk, and was totally unaware of the significance and momentousness of such an event as the start of the Chinmaya Movement, to which he was to be historically linked in the future as Swami Tejomayananda. His mother doted on him. He had his annaprasha when the history of Chinmaya Mission began. He does not remember anything! In fact, he says that he does not remember a thing till he was six years old. Fate gave him a jolt when he lost his brother in 1956. He had a family with four brothers and three sisters. The death of his elder brother, who was ten years old when Sudhakar was six, made him recognize the world around him. His elder brother was extremely fond of him.
His parents immediately put him to school. He was such a bright boy that he was taken straight into Standard II. When Sudhakar started his primary schooling, Swami Chinmayananda had completed 20 yagnas in various cities of India including Madras and Delhi. After the initial hesitation, thousands of people attended and Swami Chinmayananda had even been given a tumultuous welcome in his home state of Kerala. Very rarely is a man honoured by his own people in his lifetime. Delhi, the capital, was getting ready for a yagna, which was to be inaugurated by the President of India, Dr. Rajendra Prasad.
In 1957, the physical presence of his revered Guru, Swami Tapovanam went out of Swami Chinmayananda's life. For Sudhakar, this was the time when a bright tall sanyasi, Swami Sachidananda from Haridwar, used to go to Khargone and hold satsang. He was probably the first saint that Sudhakar remembers meeting in his life. Sudhakar used to hear him at satsang but had never met him. Satsang was a natural accompaniment in his environment before and after meeting Swami Chinmayananda. Of the many saints that Sudhakar met in his life, some are: Swami Krishnanandaji of Faizabad, Ayodhya, whom he met many times, Swami Akhandanandaji of Brindaban, Swami Gangeshwaranandaji, Shri Devaraha Baba, Anandamai Ma, Shri Nana Maharaj Taranekar, Swami Chidanandaji of Rishikesh and many others.
As Sudhakar went through middle school his father took a keen interest in his activities and interests. He insisted that he learn Sandhya Vandan (Gayatri), Sanskrit and English. His mother inculcated spiritual values in him by such exercises as making him read 'Dasabodha' (by the great saint Samarth Ramdas Swami) in Marathi to her. It is not that he only read spiritual books. He liked humour, detective, historical and other novels as well. Only later did he read Vedanta. Swami Chinmayananda too, read a lot of novels while he was travelling and before going to sleep. (At a later time, when he went to Hawaii for the first time, the people there were happily surprised that Swami Chinmayananda knew so much about the Hawaiin background. Swamiji happened to have read the book Hawaii by James Michener !)
Sudhakar took part in dramas in school and in Shri Ganesh festivals. He studied in a Hindi medium school and his mother tongue was Marathi, therefore, he became fluent in both languages. He could develop only a working knowledge of English. Sudhakar's interest for music developed through listening to North Indian vocal classical music on the radio. They had a harmonium at home, so he would practise on it on his own. He did not get any formal training in music. His childlike love for collecting harmoniums springs from his self taught experiments with this instrument. Swami Chinmayananda, on the other hand, did not sing at all but was one of the greatest patrons of the arts. Because of Swami Chinmayananda's interest and encouragement, art and culture were given a tremendous boost, from Bal Vihar to Bhakti Sandhyas. This has been a noteworthy contribution towards Indian culture.
Between the ages of 10 and 15 years, Sudhakar did not play many pranks though being the second youngest in the family, but he developed a stubborn streak, which is quite evident even now. When he manifests it now and then, it is always best to let him have his way ! Sudhakar was never a sportsman but was very fond of cricket. Swami Chinmayananda meanwhile, playing in the cricket ground of life completed his century, not in cricket, but by concluding a 100 Gyana Yagnas in 1962 for which Swami Shivananda, his sanyas - diksha Guru, sent him fond blessings.
While Sudhakar was in standard IX, Swami Chinmayananda started an academy for Vedic studies, 'Sandeepany Sadhanalaya' on January 9, 1963 in Mumbai. The students that were to emerge from this monastic training centre, including Sudhakar, were to become world-renowned teachers in the years to come. . While Swami Chinmayananda was teaching the first batch of students in the ashram and giving discourses in India, Sudhakar got a chance for public speaking in school. His father always encouraged him.
In 1964, Swami Chinmayananda went abroad with one other person on a self - educational visit to see what the West was like. In the sixties the hippie culture was at its zenith in the West and making furrows towards the East, including India. There was an inflow of hippie tourists who found it cheap to live in India. Swamiji went to USA and went to the hippie joints to watch what made them "un" tick to become dropouts from life! It was only after understanding the scenario, did Swamiji make his first official global tour in 1965. While Swamiji was beginning to be acclaimed in USA, Sudhakar was in his semi final year at school.
During the 1965 war with Pakistan, the Chinmaya Food Bank collected 25000 kilos of cereals which were given to the Jammu and Kashmir government, 13050 grams of gold were collected and many other tems for the jawans and their families. Thirty - five years later, Sudhakar, as Swami Tejomayananda was to make a similar gesture, by collecting Rs.63 lakhs for the Army Welfare Fund, in keeping with the Mission Pledge, "Service of the country is the service of the Lord of Lords?"
In 1966, when Sudhakar was 16, his father passed away. This is an age when a boy needs his father the most. It also happened to be Sudhakar's last year at school. He lost his father but the time was approaching when he would meet his spiritual father and Guru, but, not quite yet.
During his school years, many a time Sudhakar would light up a coal "anghithi" and help his mother cook food. No wonder even now he is very good at cooking. Swami Chinmayananda had been to Kuala Lumpur, held a yagna in London and several in the United States that year.
In April 1967, Swami Chinmayananda wrote the famous 'I Love You' letters to Bal Vihar children from his retreat in Uttarkashi, which every 'grown up' should read! There was a great demand for Swamiji abroad, and he went on a tour from mid June to end September. This was the year when Sudhakar joined the Govt. Degree College at Khargone, which was affiliated to Vikram University in Ujjain. He studied physics, chemistry and maths. While studying in his second year of college, when Sudhakar was 18 years old, he came across Swami Vivekananda's books and that changed the course of his life completely. Those books awakened in him an unconscious spiritual search. He lost interest in science though he completed his studies and obtained a B.Sc. Degree. He joined Motilal Vijnana College in Bhopal for his M.Sc degree in Physics, even as his mind was looking for answers elsewhere to many questions.
Sudhakar had become aware of a higher purpose in life but did not know where and how to find a way out of life's turmoil. When a person starts his search for God, it is incumbent upon the heavenly bodies to provide the seeking soul with his spiritual Master. One does not have to go anywhere to look for one's Guru; he comes to you.
Parallels In Time ( Part II )
Swami Chinmayananda ..Swami Tejomayananda
By Anjali Singh
Because of his upbringing and the religious influence of his mother, Sudhakar's mind turned towards spirituality at the young age of twenty and the process of self - evolution began. When the human soul makes an effort towards the Divine, the Lord provides him with a Teacher.
An event such as this, when a student of rare calibre meets his Teacher of great excellence for the first time, is indeed scarce. From the billions of people existing in the world, some show an interest in religion. Out of these, how many are there who have an intensity of search that wants only God and not anything else? Even among those that sincerely do want God, how many have the dispassion to leave everything and every other desire in search of Truth? Only a rare few come to this point of search and surrender to a Teacher who will lead them forward. That is why such an event is infrequent in the knowledge of humankind.
When the pressures of the negative karmas of a person, which are an impediment to auspicious happenings, are reduced by exhaustion, suffering, penance, prayer and intense longing for God; then his good karmas come forward to lead him to the auspicious moment, which is watched and celebrated by the Gods in heaven. At this time, man is brought by God's grace to come face to face with his spiritual Teacher. This is the most beneficent happening in the lifetime of a person. The worth of this event cannot be weighed in terms of coffers of priceless jewels. The moment may go unrecognized by the sadhak himself, but one thing he does feel, is love at first sight for his Teacher. The spiritual heart of the student gets touched and the real process of spiritual evolution begins its final journey. When the meeting happens, the Divinity in the seeker emerges out from within himself and stands there before him, manifested as the Guru. The awesome event in the life of Sudhakar happened in October 1969 when the two Parallels in Time crossed each other's paths for the first time.
Swami Chinmayananda stood on the dais before Sudhakar. How it happened was that while Sudhakar was studying in Bhopal for his M.Sc degree and in quest for spiritual knowledge, one day he saw a banner announcing Swami Chinmayananda's yagna at the BHEL township from September 27, to October 10, 1969. He had never even heard of his name ! He was able to go for only two days and that too, only for twenty minutes each time, towards the end of the discourse, because he had to travel a long distance.
Before meeting Swamiji, Sudhakar would often hope that if he were to find an ashram he would join it, leaving his studies. After listening to Swamiji, the impact was so great, that he wanted to leave the college immediately and seek out Swamiji, without knowing whether Swamiji had an ashram or not ! It was not any particular statement, but it was the magic of Swamiji's presence amidst the crowd and the whole experience that really gave a final 'blow' to his mind.
He finally decided that he must leave his studies and join the spiritual course at Sandeepany, of which he had come to know. In February 1970, Sudhakar left Bhopal, and went straight to Swami Chinmayananda's ashram in Mumbai.
Until this time, Swami Chinmayananda's health had been at its prime. Programmes were increasing in leaps and bounds, missionary work was progressing rapidly. One batch of brahmacharis had already emerged from the Sandeepany Sadhanalaya. Swami Purushottamananda, Swamini Sharadapriyananda, Swami Jyotirmayananda and Swamini Gangananda and others were from the first batch. The second batch was to be recruited.
Sudhakar reached Mumbai on February 26, while Swami Chinmayananda was away on a yagna tour. During that tour in Mysore, Swamiji suffered a massive heart attack, which put him out of action for three years as far as yagnas were concerned. However, Sudhakar stayed on at the ashram reading books and doing some work there. During that time Swamiji went for several retreats to Uttarkashi and Sudhakar had the privilege of going with him many a time starting in 1971. He remembers those days nostalgically as he got a chance to serve him closely. The brahmachari course, for which Sudhakar had come to Mumbai in 1970, could start only in September 1972. Swamiji gave Sudhakar yellow clothes at the start of the course itself. Even during the course, whenever Swamiji went to Uttarkashi he would take Sudhakar with him.
The course was in English, and Sudhakar's English improved rapidly. Sanskrit classes went alongside. Sudhakar had studied a little Sanskrit before; therefore, his Sanskrit was much better than the others'. Also, he had a very good memory (although it began only from the age of six!) and picked up Sanskrit so well that even as a student he was teaching three classes a day, to the other students! He loved teaching. Although he was an ideal student, he was also a bit immature in many ways. He was only 20 years old when he had joined monastic life and naive about things. For instance, once he decided to do penance by cutting down on his lunch on Sundays. Later, he realized that he had chosen the wrong day, as devotees visited the Ashram mostly on Sundays bringing sweet dishes for the lunch bhiksha and he would miss them ! Another brahmchari friend would save some sweets for him, so that he could have them at dinner ! As Swami Tejomayananda now, he has given up sweets again !
The course was completed in 1975 and Sudhakar was given the name Brahmachari Vivek Chaitanya. Swami Chinmayananda had by now recovered from his heart attack and started conducting yagnas from 1974, but not at the same pace as before. In April 1975, Br. Vivek Chaitanya was posted to Bhopal, the city that had launched his spiritual life. His very first yagna was in Bhopal where he spoke on the Geeta Chapter IV and the Ishavasyopanishad. Many families helped to organize it. Out of them, Shri Ajit and Kiran Kapadia are even now with the Mission, serving it in Baroda. He was there for eight months until December. Then for over four years, he was sent to Kanpur.
In October 1976, Swami Chinamayananda was to conduct a yagna (a series of discourses) in New Delhi. He was running a high temperature of 103 degrees C. when he arrived. The first day, Dr. Karan Singh, the chief guest, filled the gap by addressing the audience of around 5000. On the second day, nervous organizers roped in Br.Vivek Chaitanya, who had come to Delhi, to hold the fort. Br.Vivek prayed to Swamiji to speak through him, as this was the first time he was speaking to such a large audience. He softened everybody's heart by saying in the very first sentence, "I know you expected Pujya Swamiji to come here today, and must be disappointed at seeing me sitting here instead. Please know one thing: The only thing certain in life is that everything is uncertain ! Do not see me, but see Swamiji speaking through me and you will not have any problem." He managed to speak quite well and keep the audience interested enough to return the next day, to the surprise and relief of the Delhi Yagna Committee! This was the Silver Jubilee Year of Swami Chinmayananda's work. We never realized that we were listening to the first major public speech of the future head of the Chinmaya Mission.
Swami Chinmayananda's health deteriorated considerably in the next few years and one felt sad at watching him move heavily with a walking stick. He was taking spiritual camps in USA when he fell ill and was taken for an open - heart surgery in August 1980 to Houston, after some tests showed his three arteries to be blocked. It is a point to be noted that the city that served his heart has a large number of families in USA being served by the Mission now.
From April 1981 until October 1983 Br. Vivek Chaitanya was made Acharya in Sidhbari for the Vedanta course in Hindi. Swami Chinmayananda wanted to start a course in Ramayana in Sidhbari so that the students would go into the interiors of the hilly regions and serve the hill folk. Since Br. Vivek Chaitanya was the first acharya appointed there, he took up this text for the first time. He had never studied Tulsi Ramayana before that. He gave his first talk on Ramayana during Swami Chinmayananda's camp at Sidhbari. Children too, would flock to his talks. He was so humorous and funny !
His study of the Bhaagwat was through the books of Swami Akhandananda, that he had got hold of at Sidhbari. When he started studying and teaching Tulsi Ramayana and Srimad Bhaagavat, it opened up a new kind of vision for him, which brought a kind of change in his approach; and it became more devotion - oriented.
Before coming to Sidhbari, Swami Tejomayananda wrote a commentary on Ramana Maharshi's book Upadesh Saar. This was the first commentary he wrote. He composed the 108 names of Pujya Swamiji in Lucknow in 1981, which have become very well known and are recited during all paduka pujas. In this, Swami Shantananda also contributed. His first translation into Hindi was of Swami Chinmayananda's commentary on the Mundaka Upanishad. His first poem was 'Matru Stavanam' written in Sanskrit in Mumbai, which was inspired by Swamiji. His first bhajan cassette was 'Bhava Dhara' recorded in Bangalore and his first video - cassettes on the Bhaagawat were recorded in Mumbai. He has authored several books. Many audio and video - cassettes of his discourses have been released.
On October 21, 1983, Swami Chinmayananda gave Br.Vivek Chaitanya sanyas. He was given the name Swami Tejomayananda.
In November 1983, he was sent to Mumbai as the Acharya for the next two Vedanta courses in English from 1984 to 1986 and 1986 to 1988. During this period, Swami Chinmayananda's health had improved after the surgery, but he had to rebuild the Mission. In this effort, Swami Tejomayananda played a very significant role. While he trained two batches of excellent brahmacharis, Swami Chinmayananda could resume the yagnas at a fast pace again, which helped to maintain the contact with the devotees around the country and abroad. The yagnas also provided the funds needed to run the ashrams.
The first International Camp was held at Mumbai that year in 1984. During Swami Tejomayananda's period of stay at Mumbai, he started conducting Ramayana yagnas in the city of Mumbai and Ramchandraji found a place in his heart as his Ishta Devta.
As acharya, Swami Tejomayananda inculcated the greatest devotion for Swami Chinmayananda in his students. He realized that the Teacher was working through him and not that he was working for the Teacher. Both attitudes are wonderful, but one is higher. In the latter attitude, the thought can arise that in serving the Teacher, one has done a favour to him. The fact is, that if one gets a chance to serve one's Teacher, it is a great blessing, that such an opportunity was bestowed upon one. Many devotees and sadhaks succumb to this subtle vanity. Spiritual greatness is reposed upon one, as one passes through this narrow gate. Humility is the key that gives one the right of entry.
Parallels In Time (Part III)
Swami Chinmayananda ...Swami Tejomayananda
By Anjali Singh
In 1986, Swami Tejomayananda had gone abroad for the first time to Bahrain under Swamiji's instructions, and to USA. The flight was delayed in Bombay, and Jairamji and he arrived in Detroit one day late. No one was there to pick them up at the airport, their baggage was missing, and they had no contact telephone numbers and had limited pocket money ! All that they knew was that the camp was being held at Olivette College, of which, not even the car rental people seemed to know anything ! Finally, they hired a cab to drive them there. The cab driver was quite "fierce" looking, and they were scared and felt lost. The driver turned out to be nice and knew where to take them. Everyone in the camp was highly curious to know who was this Swami Tejomayananda, of whom Swami Chinmayananda had been speaking so much and so highly. Swamiji greeted him with great fondness telling him to first go shower, eat, and rest. He gave him his clothes until his baggage was found. The little swami in his tall guru's clothes, made his first appearance to the curious devotees of USA !
After the Olivette International Camp, Swamiji advised him to tour the U.S. "No more lectures. Go and see America !" He was thus enrolled in a 15 - day tour with 30 other Indians. Swamiji gave him $200 pocket money, of which he spent $6 - -to buy an umbrella ! His heart was still in India and he did not like seeing all those things. After the tour Swamiji asked: "Maya dekhli? (So, you saw maya?)"
The next year the trip to the U.S. was not that bad because it was only a two - month tour filled with satsang. The same was with the trip in 1988.
After finishing the two courses for brahmacharis in Mumbai, Swami Tejomayananda was posted as acharya to San Jose in California in 1989.
When he was initially stationed in San Jose, he was extremely restless because he felt he was bound there until his H-1 visa came through. After that, he was able to visit India and then when he returned to San Jose, he was fine, and was able to settle down. He became very popular as acharya in the West and the Mission progressed very well during this period. His first impression of the West was not great because he was too prejudiced ! He admits he has a better understanding now. He remained there until 1993.
Swami Chinmayananda had begun to succumb to left ventricular failures since the Calcutta yagna in 1990. As these episodes increased, Swamiji slowly prepared his devotees about his impending departure from the physical body. On May 13,1991, during a camp in Sidhbari, Swami Chinmayananda became very seriously ill and was taken to the Yol Cantonment hospital in the middle of the night with a heart problem, ventricular failure, high fever and diabetes. After a week as his condition stabilized, two doctors carefully took him from Sidhbari to a hospital in Mumbai. He rested there until the end of the month and went on schedule to Piercy, California, where dates had been set for a professional video recording of his discourses on the entire Bhagawad Geeta. How these discourses were given out so beautifully after such a precarious health situation, is a matter of wonder. Only men of extraordinary energy levels can answer this question. Later that year in October, upon landing at Sidhbari he was taken ill and straight to the Yol Cantonment hospital where his condition was as bad as it could get. In Swami Chinmayananda's own words, he left his body twice.
From December 1991, he rested for three months during a very cold winter in Sidhbari. Doctors forbade him to speak. Only a few devotees were with him. It was during this period that he watched Swami Tejomayananda's Bhaagwat on the video. He described it as "amrit varsha", a shower of nectar. He also watched tennis matches. Swami Chinamayananda loved tennis. One could see from his arm movements, while watching tennis matches on video, that he had himself played tennis at one time. He was also a horse rider. Once, as a child, when he had sneaked out at midnight to the stables and tried bare back riding, he had immediately been tossed off the horse. No wonder he used to say that taming the mind was like taming a horse ! Both the swamis have found that spiritual practice is very akin to sports. Swami Chinmayananda in his comments on tennis, while watching the game, gave out secrets of deep meditation to the devotees sitting around him. Swami Tejomayananda has written a book "A Game of Life" and. whenever an India a match is on, and if he is not extremely busy, Swami Tejomayananda likes to listen to the cricket commentary undisturbed ! One feels sorry for him when devotees try to distract his attention from this game. This is his only outward relaxation in the midst of heavy duties as the present head of the Chinmaya Mission.
In 1991, Swami Chinmayananda completed 500 yagnas and camps. It is said that many obstacles come to a person to stop him from completing the great tapas of 500 yagnas. So many health problems had come in his way, yet his determination and sankalpa proved stronger.
In the last camp of Swami Chinmayananda in 1993 in Washington D.C., he took Swami Tejomayananda to his room and told him: "You will now have to go to India and take up the organizational work and you will have to go to every Mission- centre. There will be some problems or difficulties, which you will have to solve, but you don't worry. They all come as God's will and God will take care of them." During this camp at Washington D.C., Swami Chinmayananda had made Swami Tejomayananda sit next to him, saying: "Let them see that we are One."
The last meeting of SwamiTejomayananda had with his Teacher was in San Diego. Just the two of them had lunched together. It was Swami Chinmayananda's last meal. After lunch, Swami Tejomayananda took leave of him to go to Los Angeles, where Swami Chinmayananda was also to go later, but was taken, seriously ill, to hospital. Swami Tejomayananda was informed and he came back to San Diego and was with him all the time until Swami Chinmayananda's Mahasamadhi on August 3, 1993 at around 6 p. m.
It rained heavily in India during the entire night. The capital, Delhi, had recorded an earthquake. The newspapers were full of reports about the unprecedented weather conditions. What did they understand that the heavens were crying for Bharat, as she was about to lose one of the greatest scions that lived on her soil and made her proclaim with pride "This was my son !"
Swami Chinmayananda left his body and the organizational responsibilities of the Chinmaya Mission. The Parallels coerced in Time, not to be separated again. The disciple that he had nurtured all these years was now fully able to carry the burning torch of Knowledge, which is the great legacy of the sages and saints of India. This is the great bond of the ancient seers. They run as one thread in a garland of choicest flowers. On August 7, Swamiji was brought in Mahasamadhi state to Delhi. He proceeded to Sidhbari, the place he had sanctified by his presence and spiritual camps over the years. There, on August 10, Mother Earth enfolded her son into her lap. In that place, his pratima now adorns the Samadhi Sthal.
Though Swami Chinmayananda had not named Swami Tejomayananda as his successor, he had indicated it to him, on several occasions that he wanted him to take up his work. Swamiji's indication was honoured by the CCMT and Swami Tejomayananda became the head of the Chinmaya Mission in August 1993.
Instead of the Mission going on a decline with the passing away of its inspirational head, devotees became more fired with enthusiasm to do his work. Even those that had not come forward earlier took up work with double the vigour. Many projects that Swamiji had started began to take shape, tangibly like the Chinmaya International Residential school and the Chinmaya Centre of World Understanding, and, intangibly like the Chinmaya Vision Programme. The wheels began to roll on the name of Swami Chinmayananda and the perseverance of Swami Tejomayananda. The Parallels were moving together as One.
This is the Guru - Shishya Parampara. In reality, there are no parallels in time. They seem to us as parallels when we see them as being born and shedding the body. Never in the three periods of time, the past, the present and the future does the Atma, the Self, in its true essence, really run parallel to itself !
The Lord alone is the ever present timeless Guru, that takes many forms and many personalities to guide humanity through the centuries. He comes to serve our needs when we awaken to the life of the spirit. He lights many Lamps of Knowledge during his 'sojourn' as a Guru. When we no longer need his help from outside and can stand on our own feet, he then disappears from our outward vision to find his place within the heart, from where he originally came out and appeared as the Guru. He is seated there forever as the Divinity in our sattvic intellect. Never is guidance lacking, if we search our own Self with a quiet mind !
